Last night He used me as His play toy. It had been 9 days of no touching. It was very hard to go from edging numerous times a day. To wearing His toys for fours a day and being so aroused and not allowed to touch. Again the worst/best is when He would tease me, taunt me, this Man has a direct line into me. From my mind and heart right to my hungry pussy. It drives me wild and yes it makes me mouthy…which He deals with really well most of the time.
He told me to go get Capzasin cream and ginger root fingers. I was apprehensive and excited about this. Curious about what He would have me do, eager to cum, still not knowing if He would allow me to. He had requested an audio file of me begging to be allowed….and I couldn’t contain my Fuck you to Him. Not very smart of me but I just couldn’t bite my tongue on it.
He had me put the cream on my nipples. Striped and kneeling by the side of the bed, my toys laid out, my chain around my neck. I was already wet, at the possibilities at Him ordering me, Him just being there in that moment with me. The burn was….painful stronger than the jalapeno but I was able to deal with it. I leaned back, chest arched, arms behind my head, eyes closed and I worked to open my mind. To turn it into pleasure. And I did, the burn didn’t let up, with the fan on it just grew. Made my nipples hard, the heat spreading to my already throbbing pussy.
He then told me to put it on the inside of my thighs which I did and sighed with relief that it wasn’t too bad. Then He had me spread it between my butt cheeks. This was…intense, took my breath away. The burn a hundred times stronger than what was going on with my nipples. I gripped my chain tight, making it bite, slowing my breath, arched my back, tilted my hips. And again I worked for it to be pleasure instead of pain. And I did it! Somehow the burn turned and pushed me higher instead of taking me out of the moment. It was fucking awesome!!
He asked me how bad do I want to cum? Am I willing to take more burning? My mind was floating a bit but my body…was screaming, begging, my neglected pussy made me say Yes. What else did He have in mind? I could deal with it I thought, more pleasure mmmmm yes please!! When He said to coat the ginger root in the cream and insert into my ass my jaw dropped. I gulped, my mind went in circles…what?? Could I handle that?? I was feeling pretty good about turning the painful burn into pleasure at this point. Thought I got this.
Well I was wrong, it burned like a motherfucker. Brought tears to my eyes and made my body shake. I was panting trying to gain control of the burn, trying to calm my mind, trying to turn it into pleasure. I failed for long, long minutes as the burn just ate at me. The level rising higher and higher, my mind screaming take it out, sweat coating me. I sat with it, one hand around my chain pulling it tight, my eyes glued to my phone, reading His words. Finally it settled down to just bearable, but moving was….torture. The air moving over my skin, any move I made to follow His orders reignited that awful burn.
And that shit spreads nor does it come off easily. He had me put it on the outside of my pussy lips. Then instructed me to clean my hands very well before I touched my clit. Didn’t want to get the cream on there…this time gulp. Well I did get some on there and funny thing? That burn was lovely and put me right back in the game, between the fire in my ass, my wet, burning pussy I was ready. And He gave me permission, gave me the countdown to cum it was…unfucking believable.
M…the things You do to me, both a beautiful torture and an awful pleasure. I adore You and Your twisted mind. I love the things You teach me about myself, the limits You push, how You show me I can do it, what my body is capable of handling. Thank you xoxoxo